When we decide to gain spiritual freedom (enlightenment), we set ourselves up to work at it. We start a path, try to reach the top of the mountain.
Spiritual freedom is as easy or as hard as you want it to be, it takes as long a time or as short of a time as you want. The power is within you at all times.
If you want to walk the path or climb the mountain, this will be easier if you do not bring your past with you like a boulder around your neck. Also, be aware that the path, the mountain is within you not out in the world. Only you can find the real you because you already know that person.
The freedom and wisdom are already there stop running away from it thinking you are moving towards something, go within to know.